One day in the future, you will definitely meet someone who is equally gentle as you. You can be friends, so don't worry. Everything you wait for is on the way, and everything you want will come true. You are so gentle, taking two steps, how can the world be willing to be not gentle with you.
Go towards beauty, don't listen to unpleasant words, unpleasant things will slowly pass, and cuteness will happen. I know you are really working hard on the road to a better place, and don't forget to tell yourself that you have worked hard.