The occasional trance when searching for wisdom alone, the helplessness of having no trustworthy person to confide in, the cowardice of being one's true self in the dead of night, these are all loneliness. You know it's there, but you never feel it breaks the excitement. It’s not until loneliness has penetrated deeply into your heart that you are forced to look for a cure, and then you realize that loneliness is an addiction that you cannot control.