Have you ever found yourself wondering if life keeps going or if it comes to an end? Sooner or later, we'll be dead, and it probably will end. But is there something more after, or do we just disappear like thin dust? It's a question that's been on my mind a lot. If life is going to finish one day, why bother trying? Some days, it feels like life is a blast, and that's why we keep at it. But on the tough days, it seems like life isn't working out, and I question why we should even bother trying.
What is our purpose in life? Why are we here, with each person different in every shape, emotion, and way of thinking? Are we special, or are we just things made to fulfill the purpose of this world?
I have always wondered what makes people so different. Taking a look at the people around me, there's a mix of folks – some sad, some super ambitious, some genuinely happy, and others feeling down. I've pondered about what makes them tick, how they feel that way, and what brings them joy or sorrow. Why are some people much more ambitious and motivated than others? Why are some sadder, while others appear relaxed and complicated? I wanted to explore the psychology of this, but answers seem elusive.
These days, I've noticed more people choosing to end their own lives, leaving me wondering about the deep sadness pushing them to make such a tough decision. What do they think about before they step to their death? What overwhelming emotions lead them to make that choice? So many questions go unanswered.
Many people see me as a happy person most of the time. People often label me as a happy-go-lucky person, but that doesn't mean I'm immune to my own worries and fears. I have my own insecurities as well. This is what I think about when I see seemingly perfect individuals – friends, family, or classmates – who appear to have it all. Do they feel perfect, or do they have struggles and worries too?
Some may say that I don't look like an anxious person, but the fear of death and illness stays with me. Even in my older years, going to the doctor remains a bit of a challenge.
Yet, in the midst of these struggles, I hold onto the belief that life has meaning; I genuinely hope so. A few things keep me hanging onto that belief:
Guided by a Higher Power:I believe in a God, whatever shape or form that might take, as my guide through life's twists and turns. Life has its highs and lows, but I trust that He's planning the best possible tour for me, tailored to meet my needs and create the best experience in this world.
Growing up in a Catholic family, I spent most of my life trying to fit into the religion and respect the culture. After trying for 17 years, it doesn't resonate with me anymore. After I went to university, I stopped going to church, praying, and I stopped believing, basically. At first, it made me feel better because I thought I was free. But it is really exhausting to always have to handle myself. I guess when someone believes in God, they trust that he is building a path for us, and we stop doubting ourselves. I feel that as humans, we can try and try, make mistakes, achieve greatness, but whether we fail or succeed, it's not just from our power but God's as well. So we don’t need to punish ourselves too hard for things we do; we can just go with the flow.
Finding Joy in Simplicity:Simple things make me happy – gazing at birds outside my window, enjoying the autumn scenery, or sipping tea on the porch. Just watching a favorite warm movie on my computer while eating chips or my favorite dessert already makes me feel very happy. No doubt, I also love adventure; I enjoy traveling, but that's about as fancy as I get. Expensive and luxurious things don't bring me joy; I don't judge when people love expensive stuff. I guess everyone has their own dislikes or likes. I don’t mind, as long as it is your own money, and you play fair to get it; you can do all you want with it. What I’m saying is just to be grateful and also look at the small things life has to offer. Not everyone has a chance to enjoy fancy things, and it’s not that bad. If you look on the bright side, the grass is not greener on the other side; it's just a different shade of green.
Spreading Love Around:
I'll be honest; I grew up surrounded by hate and jealousy, always feeling like I had to compete with everyone. I thought I needed more, do more, especially when others achieved more than me. But this year brought a realization. I had this stupid principle in life that people could only like me if I'm prettier, smarter, richer, more successful. But I also see people with none of these things, and they are still happy, with so many friends, and it made me very sick since I tried so hard to be liked, while people are liked just being who they are. And that’s the point where I changed things and decided to be who I am no matter what people think.Everyone's on their own journey. Worrying too much about the future and what you lack stops you from appreciating what you already have. Just enjoy what God's given you right now and trust the process. Sure, at first, you might be focused on seeing quick results because that's easier. But over time, I've learned to enjoy the whole journey. For example, if you want to hit the gym but hate some of the equipment, don't force yourself to like it. Go with the flow and pick things you genuinely enjoy